Oh where to begin

Oh where to begin.

Austin and I are entering our 10th month trying to build a family. Not long in the grand scheme of things but stressful considering we received news early into our journey that were were suffering from infertility that may not be reversible.  Early on in our journey, we were told to just purse IVF with ICIS and leave it at that....that there was no hope.

Oh I remember that day very clearly - standing outside of Dr. Goldberg's office ( totally jerk BTW) in the misty rain on a Tuesday morning. Crying. We were both devastated. I spent the better part of the next week crying and researching. Researching and crying. Even though Dr. Goldberg was a supreme ass ( pardon my french), he did do one nice thing - he referred us to Dr. Buch ( one the best male fertility Urologists in Dallas).

We set up an appointment to meet with him a few weeks after our hellish appointment with Dr. G. I was SO nervous. Bracing myself to hear more hopeless chatter and to leave feeling gutted. But he was nice! He was so very nice. Now, he didnt sugar coat things or say he could cure all our ills BUT he was hopeful for us. Hopeful that we would be parents and that he wanted to try to help us get there.

So we ran a few tests and all came back normal! Thank God! Based on those test results, Dr. B said he felt that the Varicocele removal surgery could really help us! Perhaps help us get preggo on our own but at least into the IUI range possibly. Music to our ears! Plus, it was covered under our insurance so...why not!

Austin was a trooper, enduring more than most men would to have a baby. He is recovered fully from his sub-lingual micro-surgical varicocelectmy ( say that 5 times fast!) and now we are playing the waiting game.

1st SA post surgery ( three months) showed a doubling in count - but still very low. We go for our 2nd SA in Nov ( 6 months post surgery). Crossing our fingers we see a more significant improvement!

In the meantime, we are still trying naturally and praying for a miracle from the Lord.

In fact, I am in my TWW and feeling bummed at only 6 DPO :(   Praying for a sticky bean but not too optimistic these days.